we're not dead yet

Two thousand and nine,

Probably the best year of my life.

Laughters, tears, frustrations,

All of the emotions were put into one.

We have met strangers, new people,

Which are now part of our lives.

Watching others grow up,

As time passes by.

We had hopes and dreams that came true,

Others destroyed and created new ones.

But to me, I believe,

I believe that dreamers live.

Alas, it is now the last day of the year,

A day before the new one comes.

But we are told that we can never stop time,

So two thousand and ten, here we come.

Love you peeps till the end of time. Peace out (:

i want to keep it minimal yet funky fresh for my new room.

i want to go to bandung/jakarta

today, i have just woken up from the 10 hour trip last night
my 3 day 2 night stay at grandma's place at kendal was very (blank)
coz of my allergies
so grandma told me to drink 8 glasses of water and eat fruits and veggies
obviously, i don't follow the last part of the advice
just drank 8 glasses of water.
and you know what ?
that stuff actually works.
coz my sneezing began to stop at times and i have smooth skin
but yeah, i have to go to the toilet like 3 times every 30 minutes.

im gonna stop talking about water.

last night's road trip back to bogor was better
coz at least we stop by to eat :p
and i keep talking to my little brother
ask him if he want to join symphonic band, what instrument he wanna play,
he want play saxophone siakk, his first choice
others is percussion and tuba.
oh yeah, we were talking about Chuck Norris.
and i was linking everything to The Rev (will say why later on)
reached bogor around 430am (indonesian time)

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RIP

James Owen Sullivan aka The Rev

February 10, 1981 - Decemeber 28, 2009

He will always be remembered in our hearts...

Was so shocked when Kimmie told me the news
There's one less hot drummer living now.
To those girls who think that he's not hot
Especially the ones from a certain place and a certain time
And also a certain class and likes a certain thing which I totally despise,
Screw you ;D

Oh well, death's unexpecting you know.

Job when I'm in Junior High : English tutor to classmates (?), poem writer.

Job when I'm in High School : English tutor to classmates (still!), poem writer, worker at nice cafes nearby, playing acoustic gigs in cafes.

Job when I'm in University : A worker at TOP NOTCH cafes (top notch seyyh), playing acoustic gigs in TOP NOTCH cafes (haha !), poem writer, Radio DJ (?)

Job when I'm a working woman : Songwriter/Music Composer/Music Producer or anything that involves with music :D

i'm just bored :p

all i want for chirstmas is you~

HEY GEEKS ! MERRY CHRISTMAS TO THE ONES WHO'S CELEBRATING IT !
woohoo ! my xmas eve was great i guess.
woke up fuckin early so that i can go to the SMP 4 to settle things
oh yeah, to those who don't bother to watch indonesian dramas,
SMP = Secondary School
yeah, reached there, saw all the people
the girls with their cliques,
the guys with their weird antics.
like a normal junior high.
settled stuff.
and this is how it works,
if there's vacancies on january, i will start school on january
BUT i have to repeat 7th grade (Sec 1) for the first 6 months
coz the new school term only starts at June
if there's NO vacancies on january, i have to wait till June
and i'll immeadiately start 8th grade then
for the first six months, i'll have to go to tuitions and shits
just to get me prepared
and oh yeah, IF got chance, i might be able to go to Encore 2010
i didn't say i could visit yeah :p
after that, rode angkot (vans that are like taxis)
for an hour or something, coz got jam
had kfc for lunch.
talked to mom about getting black vans eras or everlast's or converse's
also about the super-duper long ankle-length skirt issue
also about how to ride a motorbike while using a ankle-length skirt
long story uhh
but can't wait ! i want to get my black vans eras for school
coz i saw lots of girls using everlast slip ons and converse high tops
so yeah, head home.
had a nice long chat with MOMO.
she knows too much about __________ already.
HAHAHAHAHAH.
in the first place, i brought up the subject
so yeah, it's like that.
HAHA !
at night, followed aunt and her 3 sons to fetch uncle
after we fetched him, we went to the BOTANI MALL
LIKE HELLYEAH ! FINALLY !
coz i like that mall.
the biggest one in Bogor.
next to Pondok Indah Mall at Aunt Lisa's place
but that's a different story.
so anyways, went there, cousins wanted to go to the arcade
after that, went to eat at A&W
don't like the food there uhh, quite boring
i like the float, but i don't dare to order
coz later my relatives will think that i drink too much soft drink.
you want to know whats the issue about soft drinks here, nudge me on msn.
then i'll explain :D
homed after that.
cousin was talking craps and irritated the person working at the toll
i was pulling him back all the time
irritating uhh

today, nothing to do.
boring nak mampos.
made my new years resolution list.
most of them is like __________
nevermind. well, goodbye guys.

this internet hotspot near the house is pure shit.

i should go for it.

hmm, yesterday went to the shopping centre nearby
ate mee ayam bakso
went to the bookshop and saw aunt with her two daughters
bought some things first at the supermarket
and went to pizza hut
aunt treated us but we were quite full
thanks anyways

gahh, can't sleep last night
been thinking of some things
how am i suppose to say it ???

mom says that we might be going to the top secondary school around here next monday
just to clarify with things and such
i hope there are holidays on march
i desperately want to go to Encore
why does life seem to be so unfair ???
fuck this shit.

i've been listening to more hiphop songs than my usuals

haha, yeah. i'm liking the song "watcha say"
it's so, addictive
besides, all the songs that Asri asked me to download for him is still in my laptop
so yeah, started to listen to the songs.
watcha say and tik tok.
woohoo! hahaha.
hmm, today was okay i guess
and i can tell you that mac's here totally sucks to the effin core
don't eat macs. you'll get sick and tired of it
all thanks to my little brother uhh.
he desperately wanted to eat at macs
anyways, i've been practising ambrosia by alesana
i can play the ryhthm parts well but the lead parts can only be played in a slower tempo
but still, i can play that song !!!
i feel satisfied coz i've been dying to play that song.
next up, smooth by santana
see lah, if i'm bored, i'll just brush up on the tabs that i'm learning
gosh, speaking of this,
it's been a while since i wrote lyrics
i had lots of inspiration but i didn't bother to write them down
ah shiat, whaddhefark!
oh yeah, guys, i've created a tumblr
coz it looks pretty cool
but this i'm trying to find a nice subject for this tumblr
ya' know, all those blogs about current topics and exhibits
for example, http://minahspeak.livejournal.com
what else eyh ?? www.xiaxue.blogspot.com
or something like www.peradventureworks.blogspot.com
hehe, nevermind, i'll find a suitable topic for my new tumblr
something hot, something new

hmm, i've been thinking of something.
yeah, i should go for it.
now or never.

well, goodnight koko krunch lovers

hey good people of the world.
as you can see, i'm so lazy to reply my tags
so, sorry yeah :S
hmm, days are getting boring here
i'm trying to make my visit to singapore in march possible
but, i can see that there might be problems
especially money problems
so, don't expect me to be visiting singapore very early
other possible month, december
so goodbye to that hug on march.
have to wait for a another year
but don't worry aye ;D
i'll try my best
besides, it's still too early now.
the thing is, it just depends on the situation
so i have to have my patience.

enough about that crap

i had the most craziest and freakist dream ever
i dreamt that i was married to Zac !
ya know, the dude from percussion section ?
then for don't know what reason, we divorced.
after that, i had a relationship with Asri !
and, BLANK.
it was just so crazy
but somehow almost real.
of course, the marriage part was crazy,
but the thing with Asri was like somehow real.
freaky~

boring day coming ahead.
will fill up this space later.
adios amigos.

guess what?
FUCK YOU FINANCIAL PROBLEMS !
end of post.

WE PROMISED EACH OTHER A NICE HUG WHEN I COME BACK FOR THE HOLIDAYS!

Haha! By the way, the person must not forget.
Hahah. Pressure? Add a sticky note to remind you.
So, it's been fine in Indonesia.
Could get used to it.
Just did this and did that.
Oh man, what am I thinking ?!?!
I miss you peeps!
But I only can get to see you guys on March.
Don't worry, it'll come soon ;D
So yeah, short post. Haha
Well, tata!

so yeah, obviously, i've officially moved to indonesia
i miss the peeps so much
i wanted to cry when i arrived indonesia
but i have to stay strong
coz of something that made me really upset
thanks for the gifts, cards, photos and wishes guys
you're the best

every tear that i shed,
has it's own purpose.
where were you, my friend ?
i didn't get to hug you,
or even get to say goodbye to you.
but thanks for everything.

Who were you with yesterday?
- band peeps and family.
What woke you up this morning?
- no one ??
Where are you?
- home, messy as ever.
Is tomorrow going to be a good day?
- nope, gonna be an emotional one.
Do you like anybody?
- not now. had enough for a year :p
Ever thrown up in public?
- nahh.
Passed out because of alcohol?
- i don't drink. i dance like a moron instead.
What’s on your mind RIGHT NOW?
- if i should not sleep and help my mom pack up.
What kind of home would you like?
- penthouse or condo B-)
What do you want to be when you grow up?
- anything that involves with music.
Where do you see yourself in 5 years?
- making music, driving a car
Do you like wearing necklaces?
- not really. unless they're those heart pendant types or guitar pick charms.
Do you listen to music every day?
- yeap.
Do you still get trick ?
- absolutely.
What was the last thing you ate?
- chocolate pudding \m/
Are you a fast typer?
- nope. just taking my time (:
Whats your favorite type of soda?
- COKE!
Have you ever moved?
- yeap for i-don't-know-how-many times
Have you ever won an award?
- yeah (:
Are you listening to music right now?
- yes.
How long ’till your birthday?
- 9 months or so ?
When were you the saddest in your whole life?
- last night during mini concert. LYSB peeps should know.
What time is it?
- 2.33pm
Do you use ebay to buy or sell?
- nope.
Who makes you mad?
- it's not who but it's what. budget airplanes make me mad but i have to live with it just to see my friends next year.
Have you ever wrote a song about you?
- nah. most of it are for people. khai made one for me ! "headscarves and heavy boots"
What do you do when you’re mad?
- keep quiet at one corner.
What’s the worst thing you’ve done when you were mad?
- gotten into a catfight.
Ever made anyone cry when you were mad?
- nope.
Do you swear when you’re mad?
- hellyeah. like, who doesn't ?
When was the last time you actually cried?
- last night
Ever cried yourself to sleep?
- yeah.
Do certain songs make you cry?
- not sure ? all the songs in my iPod won't make me cry.
What usually makes you cry?
- leaving my loved ones.
Are you usually a happy person?
- somehow ? hahah.
What makes you the happiest?
- family, friends, loyang symphonic band, cars, motorcycles, vespas.
Do you believe in yourself?
- yeah.

if you think band is just some other cca,
well you're wrong
coz it's where friendships are formed and everything gets stronger
we have faith in ourselves (:

band camp is totally awesome!

first day; just like any other day
practised some new pieces and all that
also practised POP drills
tiring, sweating like hell
night time, played solo piece
first one to go
delia's piece was the best one :D
couldn't sleep that night
was so cold

second day; started off normal
gan eng seng band visited our school
had sectionals with them
the guy was like the main actor of slumdog millionare
indian but speaks very fluent english
which is so cool
combined after that
practised POP drills and all that
night time was like our free time
went to band room
saw lots of inappropriate stuff which is so wrong HAHA!
watched "Mr 3000"
some of the band members left early
but i didn't
wanted to spend my last moments with the guys and the gals
remembering me and lukman's smelly feet joke
asri and lukman tickling my foot
my feet smells like nasi padang ( inside joke between me, asri and lukman )
"some guys" gaying
lying down on pristine's back
funny incident with pristine HAHA!
slept after supper

third day; woke up, showered and prepared
practised instant swing concert in the morning
i wuv instant swing concert :D
then in the afternoon, there was a surprise drill test
i cocked up lots of parts
but yeah, i did my best
and i feel happy (:
girls rested at dance studio for a while
before resting, we watched something that made me laugh till i cry
rested, prepared, my uniform makes me look small
and its showtime
POP drills were great
but then i screwed up two parts
congrats to jerold for getting the award for best in drills
congrats to celine and wanxuan for getting the award for best in music
thanks to the guys and the gals for having faith in me
i didn't expect myself to get best in recruit
after drills, mini concert
shackleford banks, instant swing and party rock
yeah, lets shake dat ass!
woohoo!
after the seniors performance
went to perform for encore
but in the end, i was conducting it
coz he introduced me to the whole audience
and that wasn't all
sean gave me this huge card which made me cry like fuck
and the whole band sang the barney song
"i love you, you love me"
that totally made the girls cry
thanks people
you are the best
went home after that

shiat! i haven't made the videos and song dedications
i'll do them when im at indonesia
when i get my piano
eyh wait, i can do straightly
go to my cousin's house and do it
but i lazy uhh
confirm everyone will kpo or something
but whatever
so, goodbye guys (:

oh gosh! i have to pee!

maltesers are the sexiest chocolates in the world <3

hey there human beings
im like addicted to one of santana's songs
gonna put it as my blogsong later
hmm, i should start of with the day i watched new moon
watched it with weichang, peiling, hannah, geraldine, natasha, de wei and his two friends
all i can say is, new moon was better that twilight
but the ending is so fucked up
like "will you marry me?" *pause* credits
how was that suppose to help?
oh yeah, taylor lautner's hot actually
didn't realized it until i watched the movie
stupid robert pattinson
hahaha
homed at around 8pm

yesterday went to catch the concert at PRCS
it was amazing
but i can't hear the melody
oh well, they tried their best
and they can play shackelford banks quite well in 3 weeks
flute solo was amazing too
and it was CCPS performing it
it took me 2 months to get it right
man, they're so pro
haha
homed straightly after that
i realized i was sitting next to the huge tuba player from SAC junior band in bus 17
tall girl + short girl
i recognized her by her headband
hahaha

today going to fix my hair
trim bangs, trim all the unwanted things that's spoiling my hair
and going to get art supplies
also my MALTESERS!
oh god, can't wait!
ohkay, bye guys (:

hey dopez
yesterday was awesome
went to many places
bought alot of things
embarassed eva and ayuni
ate at ramen ten
suffered from aches
it was all too great to be fitted in this post
haha

so, today went to band
had a tiff with someone
i just needed some time and space
focused alot more on drills for POP
quite awesome even though it was tiring like fuck
someone had a teeny weeny incident
hope she gets better soon
RIGHT ?!
hahahah
then went to band room and played lion city festival and visigoths
ended around 6 i guess ?
went to coffee express
saw the guys and sat with them
slacked for awhile
then homed with pao
had funny talks and all that shit in the bus
and his best friend came inside
hahahahaah

tomorrow going to watch new moon
not awesome, coz i don't like new moon
but yeah, i want to spend my last moments with them
so, im watching that over rated movie
hahaha
wanted to take over pao IF he can't get up in the morning
but yeah, i going to watch
chatted with peiling and syazwan
\m/
peiling made me use my webcam
and first time talk to syazwan is like so fun
and he said he went to orchard also yesterday !
but i never see him !
same places also !
like wtf ???
HAHHAHA
ohkay, i'll stop here
bye dreamers (:

3 2 1

im so hyped up for tomorrow
massive shopping to do
best part is, im going with my two best buds
going to parkway parade today with family
probably becoz the little boys in the house wants to go to timezone
well, me too
whaddya expect ? i love playing the games at there
oh yeah, all thanks to my inner thoughts
they told me to use the purple long skirt that i found at my closet for tomorrow
so yeah, it's been a while since i used long skirts
i hope i don't trip and fall or something
ohkay
bye guys (:

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